"Working mom??"

Props to all you working moms! I honestly don’t know how you do it! I was at the sink the other day after a rather long day wondering what I was going to do for dinner. I was tired, emotional, and honestly not feeling like doing anything! Then my mind began to think of all those moms out there who work all day, come home and still get the house cleaned and the kids cared for AND dinner! Amazing to me! You are my heroes!
Recently it has been suggested that I get a job.(suggested not by my husband, if that were the case there would be no thought.) Lately I have been doing a lot of thinking about that. (Thus my thoughts at the sink)
First thought, my skills are so very lacking! I went to college to marry my hunk of studliness and found him the first year! I followed him to Liberty and took classes that I enjoyed like sign language(and were easy). Not to mention my brain only works on a short term basis, so all that I learned for the tests have now escaped my mind! Therefore I have no education degree or ANY degree for that matter to “fall back on”.
Where in the world could I work to earn even half enough to pay for child care? I do have a nine month old and I am pretty particular about his care! Sure I could work the grocery, but between gas and babysitter- there goes my paycheck!
Jack and I talked before ever getting married that we wanted me home for our children. No babysitters or day care, just mom home for whenever and whatever they needed! We knew that would not always be easy and sure we don’t live like most, but I wouldn’t trade it for anything! I did have a job after the three oldest were in school and before the fourth came along, but even then, I left after they did and was always home before they were! That is just the way we chose to do it!
So I am left wondering, is this just my selfishness rationalizing or justifying in my head? Am I being less of a mom because I don’t work? Am I cheating my family of some “extras”? Am I taking full advantage of being at home? Am I too comfortable where I am? Many question for me to think about and I definitely will. But while I think and even change some things, I will continue my “work” at home, in the home.

During my walks for the past month or so I have been going through the alphabet and meditating on the characters and attributes of God, trying to think about only one that stands out on any given day. The other day as I was nearing the end of the alphabet, I was thinking about the letter X and something that went along with it.” eXtreme” is what I came up with. The more I thought about it, the more eXtreme I realized my God is!
He is the first and the Last.
He is beginning and the end.
He kills and brings to life.
He is the king of kings and the servant of all.
He is Love and a God of wrath.
He makes poor and he makes rich.
He brings low and exalts.
He is close and yet unreachable.
He is written in creation and yet unfathomable.
He is humble, yet jealous.
He is meek and He is mighty.
He is obedient and the maker of the rules.
He takes vengeance and is the giver of grace.
He knows all yet knew no sin.
He is the forgiver of all yet never needs forgiveness.

I am certain that this list is not exhaustive and I will spend many days pondering the eXtremeness of my God. But no matter how eXtreme He is, I am sure that no one is like Him! No one measures up! My God is eXtreme!!!