A Huge Sigh of Relief

Well I have just come through one of the most stressful weeks I have had in a very long time! First, I had to make a decision for the whole family! Not just my immediate five but the seven other siblings along with their families, and mom and dad! Everyone was so gracious and didn't care where we went but I was facing a midnight deadline, two great options with benefits to either, and the possibility of putting us all in the poor house and unable to take another vacation EVER! I made it through that day only to face what I have been fearing for well over a month!
I had to speak to a huge group of moms yesterday morning and I have been sick to my stomach since Tuesday! I have not slept well and changed the outline fifty times since I was first asked to do it. I am not sure what I said, the whole talk is a blurr. So on the way home after the talk, which by the way I shook the WHOLE way through, I felt as if I would throw up. Tori just laughed at me. Once again I blame Cedar for my fears. Not once in my schooling did I have to speak in front of anyone or give an oral report or anything like that! Once again I was taken out of my place of comfort to be stretched by the maker! While I am thrilled at what he taught me through it all (a lot of time spent in prayer!) I never want to do that again!!

Winning motivates

Yesterday was a perfect day! The weather was sunny and warm. Elijah got a good nap in the great outdoors, and Paige didn't get stung. (even tho the bees were busy and definitely after our lemonade!) We packed up the car and a lunch and took a trip over to Wilmington to do some climbing. It's a great spot! The river sounds in the background, picnic area, trails, the whole bit. We played a little soccer and some football after the climbing was complete. I hiked up and around the back twice and thought for sure I would die. (I am in need of some serious exercise!!) All three kids topped out at about 110 feet! They all were motivated by something different, one in paticular for the sheer enjoyment of beating her sister! I guess it runs in the family--tennis is coming!!

Life has been a roller coaster ride for quite some time now and I don’t think the ride will be stopping anytime soon. I am getting a bit sick and wish the remedy were as simple as throwing up and feeling better. My spinning head has slightly slowed down only to start spinning like a top once again. There are times when I feel like I am floating on a chunk of ice in the middle of a freezing ocean with no landing in sight. When my feet are not planted on this ice chunk, I feel as if they are being lifted and blown around like a kite in a wind storm. Sleep evades me and my dreams chase me as if I were in a marathon that never ends. My calendar is like trying to put queen size sheets on a king size bed—no matter how you turn it there isn’t enough room! My list of to do’s is ever growing and yet keeps disappearing. And there is no one to remind me what’s on the list!
So because of all this- I am CERTAIN I birthed some brain cells!