Happy times

I just had three of the best days I have had in a while! The weather was perfect, the air smells of spring, the coffee tasted good and the company was the best! My energy has come back and I even played basketball with the kids again. Jamin kept bumping into Elijah (not real sure he enjoyed it) but Jamin rubbed my belly and apologized often.
Jack has made me laugh so much these past days my cheeks hurt and my stomach aches! We finally found a movie that was funny and clean! (haven't found one of those in a long time.) Something about these last days has reminded me of my dating days (with Jack) and while we have had an awesome marriage (no complaints) there is just something special about those days when we were dating; the smells, the laughs, the butterflies, the total attention and devotion to each other! I can't put my finger on the ONE thing that has brought back those wonderful memories, but I love my man, and I will miss him this weekend.

Gifts even after Christmas

Well, it's been almost three months (I think) since we found out we are having another child!! There are times I still can't believe it's true (until Paige comes up giggling and rubs my belly). I am pretty sure I am not suppose to be this big yet, and Jack keeps saying it's because there are two inside me. ONE is a huge surprise, I'm not sure I could wrap my head around TWO (not yet anyway)! God has been so good through the whole thing. (surprise, surprise) While my selfishness rears it's ugly head, He gently reminds me life is not about me! When worry gets the best of me, He shows me He already has everything worked out and softly reminds me to simply trust! When the tears are rolling for no apparent reason and I feel like a sloth, He assures me His strength is sufficient! When I have doubts about being able to raise another baby, I remember It's only because of Christ that I am able at all! If I were to look at all the mistakes I've made already on my children, the task of doing it again seems too great for me, and yet I know God will grant all I need! So Thankful I have the One True God on my side! I cannot wait for our new precious one to arrive!

stubborn or just frugal?

I refuse to turn my heat on! My nose is red, but I will not turn my heat on. My toes could crack off at any given moment, but the heat will not go on. My fingers can barely move on the keyboard, but the heat will not be moved by me! I can almost see my breath inside, but the thermostat will stay where it is.


I think I'll go out in the sun to warm up some.

Choosing between the two

Most decision are made with little to no thought. I will push snooze just one more time. I'm having eggs for breakfast. I'll have tea this morning instead of coffee. I think I'll take a bath not a shower. I'll change the living room around (again). Walk or ride? cake or ice cream? jeans or shorts? All decisions with very little thought behind them. But what happens when it comes to the bigger issues? When there are two ways to go and neither of them wrong or sinful? Which path do we trod? Both have their advantages as well as disadvantages. Both have bumps along the way and ruts to avoid. Both offer some sort of comfort as well as discomfort. There will be tears shed regardless of the choice. And there is always the unknown just around the bend which you can't see until you're on the path. Which way do we go when God would be honored in either? How is the final decision decided? When there's no going back can we be certain? A true test of faith is always in a decision.

Embrace tattle telling

Names are made up to protect the innocent (or in this case the guilty!)
Today I am thanking God for Tattletales! My whole life I have spent with the awful acknowledgement that I was a tattletale! Knowing I was the cause of so much torture for my siblings has often brought feelings of regret or sorrow. I spied on my sister kissing her boyfriends in the yard,so I HAD to tell. I found contraband in their secret places and was quick to the whistle, I was guilt-ridden for seeing a movie and couldn't wait to free myself by telling mom and dad that "they" forced me to go. I snuck somewhere I wasn't suppose to be and couldn't last a night before confessing. I was always quick to tell, even on myself. It struck me today that as a mom, I long for a tattletale! We recently had and incident with one of our daughters that I wish we had found out about sooner. If only we had a tattletale like me! All these years of guilt and anguish only to realize Tattle telling is GREAT! And down deep my siblings are thanking me for it! RIGHT?!?!?!?!?

life on the road

Well I didn't get my thirteen days in a row with Jack, but I did get to take a road trip to Kansas City with my dear friend. Jenn is moving to Kansas City to begin her new life, new job, new friends, and so much more with her soon to be new husband. This road trip however did not prove to be as adventurous as others. You see Jenn has driven more than once in a uhaul with our family and there always seems to be something that goes....well, lets just say not as planned. My trip with Jenn had no live animals, no tire blow outs, no waiting for hours and hours for help to arrive, no cramping into hotel rooms where the only good place to sleep was the bathtub, no non-stop crying that only began when we stopped to rest, no 100 plus degree weather without air condition, no diapers to change or stops that we had to remind someone repeatedly not to touch anything in the bathroom. We did not stop at a subway (didn't dare) and we made it there in record time! This trip however did leave me with memories I will not soon forget. I always love my time with Aunt Jenny and I will miss her dearly. I certainly look forward to our next road trip together.

Well life has been a whirlwind the last month or so, and I am ready for my sweet hunk to return to me! I must say though this past week has been one of me laying in the pool and playing with the kids. And while that's all good and fine, it just doesn't feel the same when my best friend is in another country. We just celebrated 13 years together and I cannot wait for the next 13! (right now however I would be happy with 13 days in a row with him) He comes home sometime tomorrow and I am waiting! I would not have pictured my life like this 13 years ago, New Jersey, three kids, a pastors wife. And yet there is no way I would ever change the people I am spending it with! The times we must be apart are only bearable because of the amazing times we share when we are together.